Monday, October 27, 2008

so alive and too young to die

i dont understand anything anymore.

why is some girl who you supposedly dated after me adding me on motherfucking facebook? bitch i dont care who you are or how many fucking friends we have in common. but i'll add you anyways cause i have no idea what happened. cause im a dumb bitch.

and whats up with people here thinking its okay to talk trash and not take it? if you have a problem with me stand the fuck up. please. do it for yourself. you look like a fool sitting there behind your computer and having NOTHING to say to me. the sick thing is it doesnt quite bother me. i just have nothing else better going on than to worry about your pity party.

i dont get excited for anything anymore. im just slipping down and down and down and down. i know i dont need someone to complete me or make my life worth it. but really, i need a hand. really really badly. 

i dont miss home. i dont want to be here. im not going anywhere. im in a static state of mind and ambiguous life situation. im not learning anything i need.  im not gaining anything worth saving.

nineteen lonely years. 

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