it's funny when people start leaving you out of their life. i mean, you're probably not doing it on purpose. i know im terribly oversensitive sometimes. but when all of your old friends are getting together and forgetting to call, or not making a big deal about anything ... life kindof sucks. i mean, since when is it a big deal to invite one of your best friends over? i guess i'm old fashioned. i guess my idea that friends are forever is old fashioned, is outdated. i mean, who stays with their middle and high school buddies these days? we're all way too cool with our new and exciting college people to deal with home bullshit. except when you don't have those new people, and the old ones don't want you, where are you supposed to go?

i'm not too busy. i'm not too much trouble. at least i didn't think i was. oh well, it's all for the best i guess. the people who want to be in my life are the ones who will always matter. there will always be room for more, but i'm not going to keep pushing if you're done with your pull.

i need to start making art again. giant side note.