seriously all my fault

sad and disappointed and frustrated but it's all my fault so i guess i should work on that. i need to stop being so needy and being so clingy and wanting to be with people all the goddamn time. just because i dont have a life doesnt mean everyone i want to spend mine with doesnt either. fuckfuckfuck. if you have no expectations, you cannot be disappointed. i wish i could think that way, i really fucking do.