youre worried

when youve really missed the boat on the big deal.

today was bad.

just when i thought i was doing better.

& it's 2am again and im not sleeping yet.

thank god im not drunk. 

i want to just give you my writing so maybe you'll get me a little more.  however i have this nagging feeling my words cannot even begin to describe it. 

i have so much work to finish.  and i am so angry. 

how did i do it before?