Tuesday, November 18, 2008

november 17th

i know i owe about 5 days worth of thoughts and photos. tomorrow they'll be here. 

right now all i'm thinking about is how, just 2 years ago and some hours ... 731 days ... 17,520 hours ... you were here with us. still breathing. still alive.  you have been a part of my every day.  those 731 days have not gone without thought or memory of you.  and it's silly really, i keep expecting to see you walk through the door. i'm almost older than you were now, give me a few months and i will be. that's not supposed to happen.  you were supposed to grow older and be a legend.  not a headstone.  not a sad memory.  not a throbbing piece of my heart that dies over and over again every time i see the number 41, or hear 'dirty girl', or think of mr. pinch and those rainy track afternoon.  

i can still hear your laugh.
lovelife.

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